Poly + Life Decision.

Hellooooo ~ The promised post is here! P/s: gonna be a relatively long post :O

Basically, I'm in Diploma of Psychology Studies under the School of Humanities and Social Science (HSS) and no, I cannot read your mind. We know what you're thinking or feeling by observing and understanding your behaviour. And ya la I'm not that advanced yet LOL. What I'm doing now is assuming, not interpreting HAHA.

The modules that I'm currently taking are; Foundation Psychology A, Principles of Statistics, Academic Writing, Public Speaking, Introductory Research Methods, and IT Applications. Actually the first 3 mentioned are very very similar to Biology, Math and English respectively. In PSpeak, its all about speech.. almost every week we have to do a speech and yeap, examinations are speech-based too. So if you're good at expressing yourself through words and body language, you sure can ace one. Sadly, I'm not very good sigh. Then IRM is about doing researches and ITApps is like learning how to use Microsoft etc. Damn boring hate them the most zzzzz.

School so far was not bad. Friendly classmates, new group of friends, interesting lecturers/tutors and care-person. The only thing I can't adapt to is the need for independence in learning... which I don't really have la.  I'm so used to having a teacher to chase after me for homework and there are things such as extra lesson to cover up topics or remedials. Whereas in Poly, its either you go look for the lecturers (who are usually busy), ask your friends, or study yourself. For the first, I find it kinda awkward. Second, I don't like to bomb a lot of questions to my friend lest they get annoyed :( Last, I can never do that without procrastinating and at the end of the day, nothing is done. 

Well, what is good is that the deadlines for the assignments are always widely spread out. Meaning I don't have to rush 3 assignments at one go, its always one at a time. But because I procrastinate a lot....... I end up rushing altogether LOL. Also, my time-table ain't tight as well :DDDDD 

Even though its all not too bad.... I feel that I'm not enjoying life in Poly as much as others are.. Frankly speaking, Psychology is not what I really love. :/ During the JAE period, I had a tough decision on the second choice because I knew my first choice (Meridian JC, cause at that time other JCs weren't 'appealing ' to me) will definitely be unsuccessful, I was 2 points away. So my second choice was crucial. I was contemplating between Biomedical Science and Psych, so I chose Psych in the end because I was kinda interested in it. After which I got the results, which is obviously Psych, I emailed to make an appeal to Biomedical Science because I regretted and thought Science was an area I could do better in. Waited for a month+ and a letter was sent to inform me that it was unsuccessful. How sad. 

So I had no choice but to move on. Went for the Freshmen Orientation and met new friends blahblahblah and school started not long after. Few days after the start of school, I received a phone call from idk where, the woman on the other side of the phone said that there was vacancy and asked if I still wanna appeal. DENGDENG, I SAID NO.She reconfirmed with me and I said, YEAH NO. The phone call lasted for only 2 minutes and yes I made the decision instantly. WHY WAS I BEING DECISIVE AT THE WRONG TIMING. Okay la at that time I already started school and was used to the HSS ambiance (HAHA) and the lectures kinda interest me so I thought I should just stay. Anyway, I already bought the textbooks and my relatives said I will have a good prospect in this course LOL. 

Currently, my interest for it is still at a moderate level of 70%. So not too bad la..

But the term tests results disappoint me so much that I want to quit school. It made me realize that maybe Psych is really not my type. Obviously I can't make the decision right now because I think its all too early. Just maybe, the holiday break was too long and my engine have yet to warm up hahaha. So it all depends on Sem test now. I will study harder and try to score well for it. If I don't, I guess this ain't for me.. At that time, I will quit school and perhaps study Music, or go through JAE 2014.

Hmmm, actually I would love to study Music but I like no talent leh. I'm only best at opening concert in the bathroom. Happens everyday, 20 mins before I officially start showering HAHA. But then again ah, if I really study that, NO TALENT + NO DIPLOMA CERT = GO FLY KITE. So maybe I might consider just chionging for 2.5 more years in Poly for a Diploma cert (everyone needs back-up one mah right). Then meanwhile I go learn musical instrument or take up vocal lessons. I think it sounds better, doesn't it?

Okay to end this post I upload a picture of me in the bathroom everyday k?

Erm, imagine her with more flabby arms, wet and flat hair, darker skin. Ahya fatter version of her can. And er, asian face. TEEHEE.

-RCHM-

Bad Dream.

I... I experienced consecutive bad dreams last night... And they are so scary I didn't dare fall asleep after that. Come let me share one of the them.

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I was kidnapped by a man in a house and that man looked like my Dad but he wasn't my Dad and that house looked like my house but ain't my house. Oh, and my Bro was there too, not an accomplice but was on the same boat as I am. The thing is, he was VERY calm, just sitting on the couch staring into space. WHICH IS SO SCARY. Blahblahblah, I found myself ransacking the cupboards to look for evidence for idk what crime la. And I ended up finding a bottle of honey in the kitchen, my instinct told me that was the evidence. At that time, the man was standing by the kitchen window staring at me. And his facial expression made me double confirm that that was the evidence. I know la, sound very stupid right... a bottle of honey as evidence.. -.- But that was it. 

He started to walk towards me and again, my instinct told me he was gonna 杀人灭口. HE WAS GONNA KILL ME. And you know what? I TURNED TO THE TABLE, TASTED THE HONEY AND SAID OUT LOUD "MMMM, I CAN BAKE A CAKE WITH THIS HONEY LATER." So that the man will think that I still don't know that is the evidence. Don't ask me why, I have no idea why I said that. IT WAS A DREAM.

Then the dreadful thing came.. He just kept walking towards me, and I started moving backwards and ran to the couch where my Bro is and told him I was in danger. My Bro just kept staring in space as though he was hypnotized or something. Then the man used his hand and pressed on my knee cap, where the knee bone is la idk what that is called. Then he pressed even harder and harder, only using one hand, my bone started to dent inwards. Then I cried all that then I woke up. The end. 

Okay maybe when you guys read it doesn't sound scary but it really was D; After which I didn't dare to sleep because I was scared that somebody will come into my room to kill me zzzzzz. 

-RCHM-

P/S: Don't judge me okay, IT REALLY WAS SCARY. 

Weekends.

Hihi! 

Right now its 5:34pm and I'm laying on the bed, blogging. Gonna hide myself in the room because my Bro's friend(s) is/will be here... Oh well, just hope that they will order delivery when they're hungry so I can kop wahaha. K la cannot because me is on diet. 

Okay back to the point of this entry.

As some may know (through Twitter), I joined Floorball as CCA in Poly. And today was the team selection for the upcoming POL-ITE and some other competitions idk. Obviously I didn't manage to get in.. I always know that I don't have that triple S; Speed, Stamina and Skills, which is like so important when playing Sports. Moreover, all the other Year 1s were experienced players so I knew my chance was like 0.0000001%. When I heard about it, I was still kinda disappointed but I have to accept the fact that I don't play well and am not selected. To think on the bright side, I no longer have to go school and Saturdays and can use the time to study. :)  BUT THEN, I WILL DEFINITELY TRY AGAIN NEXT YEAR. 

So to summarize my Saturday; Floorball > Home. Yeah I'm gonna just stay in bed from now on cause I'm really tired.. wanted to do my assignments but I guess imma just leave them till tomorrow LOLOL. 

As for tomorrow, other than dealing with those assignments... I've decided to go swimming in the morning wheeeeeeee ~ Then I've to work from 1pm to 5:30pm (gonna use this time to do assignment hoho). After which I think I will head home for dinz before going to SB to mug the whole night. 

5:51pm. I took 17 mins to type that little.. see how tired I am? Hahaha. Okay la actually I have nothing more to say already so bye bye!

-RCHM-

P/S: I realized the structure of my blog entry sucks. But ahya make do with it la hor, main point there can liao xD 

Meh.

Annyeonghaseyo~ 

This is gonna be a quick post because my poor laptop is left with only 9% and I am too lazy to go charge it. Nothing much to update actually.. but yeah, I got back a few other results for my term test and yes, MEH.

Of course la I know I can't expect much because I didn't really study.. I mean, I studied. But only the night before then I chiong like one cow. Got B for my SOS, together with the previous impromptu speech whereby I got a B+.. I think overall still B+ ba since my B is a high B. Then Psych A paper I got a C+. Yes a damn C+ zzzzzzzz. 

But I guess the grade looks bad because of the stupid grading system..... -.- Its like, I scored 53/80 not too bad right. Convert to 100% its like 66.something? In Secondary School its like a B3? Here in Poly I freaking got a C+. How demoralizing. 

But then again, maybe I really didn't put in enough effort. SO, I've decided to work harder this term and if my sem test results still end up like shit, I guess I will retire from Poly for the time-being ><. 

SIGH. gonna be real busy tomorrow. School from 9 to 1, then speech planning with Jo till idk what time, afterwards gotta rush IRM assignment which I haven't even started.. It was given before the term break and the deadline even extended from 7th July to 12th but I still haven't start. This is how unmotivated I am for subjects like these pffffft. 

Oh and I realized I said in my previous previous post that I'll have a post on my Poly blahblahs and what I eventually want all that right... hahaha no time ah no time. Maybe during the weekends ba xD

I guess that is all for now..... annyeong ~ Gudbum (Jalja)!

-RCHM-

Dilemma

Should I quit after this semester and pursue my dreams? Or should I just continue and get a diploma as a back-up just in case I can't achieve what I want? 

Been thinking about this for quite some time but I don't have the courage to do so. My friends said I'm crazy and should not. I think so too because I don't have the background. But then again, what I'm doing now is not what I yearn to achieve in the future. 

Am in a huge dilemma. If only I have the forte..

-RCHM-

The Lone Ranger + Overnight Queuing ~~~

Its 4:14am now and I just finished eating half a bowl of kimchi ramyun. Fell asleep at 6pm and forced myself to wake up at 3+am because I have to rush my assignment :( Totally forgotten about it until Jo reminded me on Saturday night. But I couldn't do it because I accompanied Liyana to queue overnight for B.A.P's concert ticket down at City Square Mall! No blaming here alright! I did it willingly hehe cause previously she accompanied me to queue for BEAST's concert :D

So we got home and prepared after going to the gym before meeting at 10.40pm to head down to the mall. As usual, I'm late. Ahya in fact this time round both was late, but I was more late LOL. So we ended up meeting at 11pm. Wanted to catch Despicable Me 2 but we couldn't get there in time for it...D: Watched The Lone Ranger instead and it was not too bad!!

 Funny and action-packed, will rate it 8/10!

Movie ended at about 3am and we started queuing................................................. HAHA okay la it wasn't as bad as I thought because I wasn't feeling sleepy at all and pre-downloaded shows to entertain myself. Smart me. Then the official queue started at 7, whereby we were 'ushered' into the mall for further waiting. Sale of tickets started at 10am and Liyana got it only at 2pm? Well I left earlier because I have work at 1pm.    

Basically my weekends can be summarized in 3 words : Deprived of sleep.

Ohoh before I end my post, would like to share that I'm currently watching [Daddy, where are we going?]!! Its a Korean show and trust me, the kids are super cute omgomgomg. And my bias child in the show is Junsu! Ahhhhh too cute la xD

Just look at him......... *_* 

Are you falling in love with him too? Wahahaha. 

Okay la, gotta go work on my assignment now T_T. Till then, goodbye ~~

-RCHM-

Determination > Motivation.

I know I've said this a lot of times but still, I'm gonna start exercising regularly. I wanna slim down. I wanna tone up. I wanna look good. Most importantly, I want to FEEL good. And so, I've come to a decision to exercise at least thrice a week! 

I'll most probably head to the gym to run on the treadmill and do minimal workouts. Started off wanting to do workouts at home but my house ain't big. The only area that has sufficient space is the living room and I find it so awkward to attempt workouts there. AND, my Bro love to laugh at me whenever he see me doing that. I really don't know what is so funny LOL but I don't blame him ;)

My plan to eat healthily and nutritionally starts tomorrow. And no 'that tomorrow never come' shall not apply to me, tomorrow is tomorrow it shall be as that when the clock strikes 12. No more unnecessary snacking or  food after 8pm. Of course, changing my lifestyle can't be as easy as snapping fingers.. but I have to do it.

"A goal without action is just a wish." Motivation is what gets me started, but eventually its my determination that will keep me going. THIS, IS MY GOAL. I AM DETERMINED.

-RCHM-

Its an at least once a week thing.

Good afternoon!

You might be wondering what the 'thing' in the title refers to right..? K basically its me skipping school................. And no, I'm not a bad student. Its just that I find going to school for a one hour's lecture that is so content-based (meaning I can understand just by reading the textbook), really pointless. So I usually skip school on Mondays. And sometimes Friday for a 3 hours tutorial because I really hate that subject. 

Today was a different case. I woke up at 9.30am with a really bad headache, nevertheless I got ready for school and as I was happily eating my bee hoon thinking that I was still early, I chanced upon my timetable and I realized that my tutorial starts at 10am wth. Looked at the clock and poof, 10.10am. So I was late. So I gave school a miss. So I went to see the doctor at the Polyclinic. So I got an MC. So my overall attendance is still fine. 

Anyway it was a 'killing two birds with one stone' situation. I was having flu and cough for the past 2 days and I woke up with a bad headache. If I were to go to school, I would have reached at about 11.45am? And would be marked absent as the grace time was only 15 mins. WHAT FOR RIGHT. So, I deem it as a wise decision! Acceptable? Yes. 

Its currently 12.44pm now and I have nothing to do. I wanted to eat the medicine but I can't.. it causes drowsiness.. And I can't sleep because I have work later at 4pm :(. But! I'm meeting Kelly in about 30 mins' time to collect her cert at EV! So excited to go back to school again, really missed it a lot. Poly life just sucks big time really, Secondary days are the best :')

AGAIN, my post seems to be getting nowhere..... and since I've touched on Poly life, I feel like blogging about it. But not now uh, maybe my next post or something. Haha. 

Okay... am I gonna just end off abruptly again... hahahahaha I suck at blogging la seriously. Oh well, do anticipate my next entry because it may/will be about my Poly life! Ciaos ~

-RCHM-

Throwback.

My self-derived definition of 'throwback': Let's throw time back to n days ago.

So this post consist of past highlights ~ (p/s do foresee a lengthy post k ><)

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- 21/06/2013 -

On this fateful day, I decided to give the auditions a try. It was an casting audition for Jack Neo's upcoming movie during CNY 2014, The Lion Men. So.. it was my very first audition in my life and I was so damn nervous. How blessed I am to have Liyana to accompany me there! 

We reached Cineleisure in the early afternoon and when I saw the other auditionees, I got so tensed up that I told Liyana I was gonna just give up trying.. Majority of them were so good-looking! I was somewhat demoralized LOL and Liyana just kept persuading me to give it a go.  

Everything was too last minute because I only came to such a decision the night before. I didn't prepare any song or dance as a bonus nor was I prepared to memorize the given script and act. Anyway, we ended up having an impromptu decision to go for a singing session at K-Box. I know, very random! But it was somewhat for myself to chill a little and choose a suitable song to sing afterwards for the audition (registration was available till 9pm). 

And so we sing sing sung till the evening. Then, I took up the courage and went to register.. was then given the script to practice while I wait for my turn. 

Taken by Liyana while I was practicing ~

Then the time came. I went into the audition room and the casting director was sitting down there, with a camera fixed on a tripod infront of her. And guess what? Tosh Zhang was there too. HE WAS SO CHARMING LA PLEASE. And I got even more nervous LOL. What made it worse was that before I start, Noah Yap entered the room and sat down beside Tosh. CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW NERVOUS I BECAME?! Okay of course I wasn't blaming their presence la maybe I just don't have the forte in acting. :O

Well, I ended up forgetting the lines and started adding in some of my own, while the director was trying to remind me by giving me hints.. Then I sang; Bon Jovi's Its My Life. I think it was not too bad, but the main thing they were looking out for was someone who could act well. So.. yeap, do heave a sigh on my behalf. 

Introducing.... Liyana!!

Really really wanna thank her for persuading and encouraging me this time round! ^^ Ahya actually, most of the time whenever I tell her I feel like achieving something. She never fails to support me and give me advice (even though sometimes her advice are best not to hear HAHA.) So glad to have her as a friend :') Humanflyhouseholdlizard I know you're reading this, very touched right hahahaha.

.END.

- 3/7/2013 -

Ahya this time round throw not far enough throw to yesterday.. K LA LAME I KNOW.

Yesterday was full of emotions. Was first nervous for the speech, then relieved that its over, then teared (a little) and ended up laughing hysterically because of some of my classmates' speeches. 

The theme was Special Occasion Speech and it was 35% of our overall Semester results for Public Speaking, so obviously I was nervous. Chose to do a Stepping Down speech because; Firstly, I can wear my NCC No.3 uniform after so long and I didn't have to spend money on formal wear, period. Secondly, I have so many experiences to share and I probably won't have trouble planning the speech. I can't possibly do a Valedictorian speech when I am not. I mean, the feeling will be different. And indeed, I made the right choice. 

Surprisingly still able to fit into them after 1.5 years xD.

Was really trembling when I was standing in front of everyone as I was the 5th. So I started off by shouting 'NCC, diam!', and by doing so I relaxed a little and was able to deliver my speech quite fluently. Thank God! Really hope I can score well ~~ 

.END.

-RCHM-

First post.

Hola!

Failed attempt to wink LOL.

Basically, I'm back to blogging. This is my 4th blog in n years. It all started off with me being all excited about it and then bored of it. Y'know, that 三分钟热度 attitude. But I am determined to keep this one alive. 

A reason to why I am not fond of blogging is because I think my life is a bore and it is thus pointless to blabber about it. But this blog, is for myself. It is to allow me to reminisce and think back on what I've done or been through. Meaningful right? Well, at least to me it is la.

Okay... I know I don't sound enthusiastic about this at all but, I AM OKAY. I REALLY AM! Its just that there is nothing much to talk about since this is my very first blog post. I can't possibly start off by talking about my day right... I mean, idk its just weird LOL. 

So right now I'm asking myself, 'Am I gonna just act like an awkward turtle and end this post abruptly?'

YES.

Okay bye.

- RCHM -

P/s: Pardon me for such lameness, main point is to announce that I'm back to blogging whooooo ~~~